I think I'm handling things pretty well so far, I haven't cried yet, I'm not nervous, my only stress is about bills. Don't get me wrong, it's only been a few hours and I miss him already, but I am so dang proud of him it's hard to feel anything else.
I've really enjoyed reading everyone's answers to the "Military Wife Blogger Competition". Their (your) answers fill me with a sense of pride, calm, and a little bit of dread, if that combination of emotions is even possible. I love reading milspouse blogs and pulling from their (your) strength and learning from them (you). I'm trying to learn as much as I can.
I'm scared I'll screw things up and I'm afraid I won't be supportive enough or I'll be too needy or naggy. I'm worried I'll forget to pay a bill or spend too much. I'm proud that I have the oppurtunity to support my husband (a future sailor) and that I can serve our country in my own small way. I'm numb because I don't want to hurt. I'm.... in love. I love him so damn much. I need to get used to this whole being away thing, I hear it never gets any easier, you just learn to deal better, and I really hope I get the hang of dealing. I don't want this to turn into a mopey, whiney, "woe is me" type of blog, but I'll be honest, there is sure to be some of that, and forgive me but it's what I need and I'm sure you all understand. :)
Well, I hope everyone had a good Monday and an even better rest of their week.
I'll write more tomorrow, hopefully without so many "I" statements and not so depressing. :)
EDIT: here are a few of the last pictures we took together. :)
Please excuse the no makeup craziness that is my face, I don't know what it is but these were VERY unflattering pictures. ugh.