I'm not sure if I've mentioned this on my blog before but the hubby and I are currently trying to conceive. I want more than anything in this world to become a mommy.
But I am beyond scared. Scared that I'm going to find out that I CAN'T have children. News like that will absolutely break me. You see, I haven't gotten my period since November. But I took a test on New Years and it was Negative. Also, every once in a while I'll feel a sharp pain in what feels to me like my right ovary. Every time that happens warning signs pop into my head shouting "cyst! PCOS! Can't get pregnant!" and I nearly have a panic attack. And I'm too scared to go to the doctor and have them tell me "without-a-doubt" that something is wrong with me. Also, I still need to fill out my Tri-Care forms to change the region I'm in. It's probably way too soon for me to be worrying. And my fears are probably throwing things way out of proportion. Either way, I just pray that God helps me through whatever happens. Pregnancy or no. But please God let me be pregnant.